August 24, 2017

There Are No Rules

 
I'm currently visiting my childhood home in central Florida. I've only run into one high school acquaintance at the grocery store so far. It's strange. I'm like a bonafide adult now. I caught myself dishing out advice to a teenager on the plane ride here. (I hope it didn't feel too unsolicited.)

As much as I live my life with intention and suffused with meaning, I'm trying hard not to read too much into my writing here. I think I'm still figuring out how much I want to share via this platform as opposed to my Instagram, or my Tinyletter—or frankly anything online for that matter. In the ever increasingly obtrusive digital age, I've enjoyed retaining some privacy.

That said, I return to this blog more often than not, actually. I feel fond for a past self who chose to publicly document so much. I love being able to browse my archives, groaning at the ignorant comments or admiring my adolescent yearnings. I remember feeling like if I could just get out of Florida, I could establish a happier path for myself. Now, I bring up my Floridian roots practically any chance I get. Diners at the restaurant had to hear about how I didn't think it was hot outside because I grew up amid constant heat and humidity. You also best believe I have so many thoughts and feelings about the trailer for Sean Baker's The Florida Project. One day I would love to make a short video series all about Florida, tackling stereotypes and misconceptions. Also, space.

My life feels fluid, constantly grappling for identities and seeking more understanding each day. I love the messy, emotional Lizzie who is seriously trying her best to heal. Always have, always will.

April 16, 2017

22 Before 23

My long time blogger pal Maggie recently posted her "25 before 26" list and I was inspired to do the same.  With approximately six more months before October 10, 2017, here are my goals:
  1. Watch more films by WTFs
  2. Create a proper website/portfolio
  3. Bullet journal every day
  4. Fill a sketchbook
  5. Compile and publish a zine
  6. Compete in Minnesota's 48 Hour Film Fest
  7. Continue Word of the Hour Redux with Nicole
  8. Continue producing Ink Clings with Lauren
  9. Read 15 books
  10. Cook a new healthy meal every month
  11. Speak up for my needs
  12. Budget better
  13. Do projects with Photoshop and AfterEffects
  14. Use my DSLR more
  15. Travel to D.C.

  16. Use social media with more intention
  17. Start an ETC circle with Twin Cities pals
  18. Practice my DIY spirituality (dancing, meditating, conversing with strangers)
  19. Finish editing PGT
  20. Shoot and screen my claymation documentary
  21. Talk less, smile more